Delays

There has been a fact of life that I forget from time to time... "Life is not fair."

The funny thing is that we're all expected to play by the same rules, but we all start at different places on the game board. Some people start at Free Parking. Some people start at the Jail. Others start at Income Tax. The lucky few start at Boardwalk. Some people are the top hat. Some people are the dog. Some people are the thimble. Others are the car.

Anyways, everyone has burdens they don't think anyone else will ever understand or care about... the trick is being able to stop and lay them down... and then start up again walking forward without looking back...

Tired

I'm tired...
Tired of trying. Tired of putting myself out there. Tired of always having to to make the first move. Tired of being an afterthought. Tired of saying yes in order to keep getting asked, but tired of saying no to try and hide. Tired of not knowing what I want. Tired of knowing and not being able to obtain. Tired of saving the day. Tired of seeing people move on and forget. Tired of selfish people, self-absorbed people, people who don't care. Tired of waiting. Tired of faith. Tired of lack of faith. Tired of people not understanding or wanting to understand. Tired of advice.
I'm tired...

What's nice...
Being missed. Smiles. Thoughtful listening. Warm cup of tea/coffee/hot chocolate. Random phone calls. Warm pie w/ a scoop of vanilla ice cream. Hugs. Laughter. Being needed. Having a purpose. Sunrises. Sunsets. Smooth jazz. Days off.
What's nice...

Valuable Lesson

One of the things I almost always forget:
Often times it's more important to a woman that she wins an argument than actually being right.